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| You know it's time we grow old and do some shit |
[14 Nov 2006|03:55pm] |
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I have to ask, what is college really preparing me for?
Since i go to a liberal arts school i have to satisfy a thousand nonsense credits which include sequences and labs for things that don't pertain to my major at all. cool. So we're more varied right? or just spend thinly over a lot of things that dont matter?
Everything is really taxing lately, even music. i think my dream would be just to play with kids all day in the sun
Anyway my classes for next semester thus far are:
Communication and Speech Disorders: Fundamentals of Hearing Disorders (science credit!)
Sociology of Sex and Gender
Writing
Gothic Art in Italy (which i'll surely drop)
Abnormal Psychology
I'm bound to change at least 3 of those classes. ugh.
At least i look happy right?
The broken social scene song: lover's spit is incredibly addictive and good.
mmm In a week i'll be in Vancouver with my favorites and i can relaxxxxxxxx
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[29 Oct 2006|07:23pm] |
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Halloween is super tacky, we all know this. I acknowledge that it is a super fun weekend for some people because there's craziness involved but i absolutely detest skankfest 2006. But this year it was actually a lot of fun!
Yes i was the girl from the blind melon video!
My night was momentarily ruined when i saw the fridge was open in this apartment so i decided to fix the beverage drawer so that the door will close. While i was doing this two boys are drunkenly dancing on a table and amanda insists on taking pictures of them so i hand her my camera. the kid is drunk and falls backwards, amanda tries to save him and my camera breaks. ARGGGH UGGGGH
i saw two guys on the way to a party dressed in 80's outfit and i just threw out "i love your shorts" and then as a joke "are you guys from the call on me video?" and i keep walking and they stop and go "oh my god, nobody guessed that! we ARE, we love you!" and they insisted on running back to give me a hug. i sat next to a batman on the bus and was incredibly aroused (even though his costume was a childrens costume)
my camera looks so sad :(
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[25 Oct 2006|01:17am] |
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So i love love love tuesdays off, i spent the entire day in the same pair of pj's and it felt grrrreat. i have absolutely no idea what holiday was today but i thoroughly enjoyed myself.
Cockiness is the biggest turn off, we all know this. why do guys think it's okay even if it's 'warranted'? and remember cocky - like a peacock.
i love crazy straws, they make even mundane drinks appealing
The way to my heart is breakfast/brunch i have found, igor is quite demanding. We have an apartment rule where if a guy wants to sleep over he has to make us all breakfast, and i love it.
I've decided i'm blaming all my problems on the post office....and fat people
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[17 Oct 2006|04:30pm] |
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1) i miss the sun like the deserts miss the rain. anyone who says it isnt depressing when it starts raining and getting colder is an idiot.
2) i quit my job! hopefully i will be working with children instead shortly. or longly. i just hope in the near future.
3) i have become something of a boxing enthusiast, and by that i mean looking at sweaty men with rippling backs is delicious. i make joke. i love boxing, usually i would just give up at something i'm not automatically good at but the guys are so encouraging and always motivating me so it feels good. but the pain and aching after is so intense i want to die.
4) I will do anything to wear a dress....or for chicken pot pie. Either way last weekend i went to a boxing benefit dinner in which i got to wear a dress. the next day i went to the delt semi formal which was an around the world party!
So pictures!
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| Nothing to salvage anyway |
[05 Oct 2006|05:32pm] |
update on the jane.
Just baked a cake, i feel good about that, it's a cayley and jane baileys creation sans the irish pride.
Had my first real non first week acapella show and felt kind of crappy about that, it was really sad not having my mom there with a ham sandwich, my dad with his camera, my army of skanks.
Went boxing for the first time, training not boxing people, so we did rounds around the ring, shadow boxing, punching bags, some weird ball. and i felt proudly good but achy (most intense pain of my life) about that.
GOT TICKETS TO VANCOUVER FOR THANKSGIVING TO SEE MY FAVORITE PEOPLE IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD
feel excellent about that.
but can everyone tell olivia kelly she's not allowed to touch me with her hoofs?
This is a picture i love.
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| Is that all there is? |
[27 Sep 2006|12:16am] |
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My choir does this thing, roses and thorns. Everyone names something good that happened to them (a rose) and a bad thing ( a thorn)
except we havent done it yet.
but somehow in our household it has become a little regular joke. So let's see, if i could start the weekend on sunday, my rose would be that we went apple picking! Feast your eyes!
Isn't it crazy how long my tongue looks? its partly the reflection in the apple, because in reality my tongue is actually shockingly short.
We went to a diner for breakfast which also made my day, yesss farmers breakfassst.
Us on the back of the tractor...thing. i like the clouds in the back, it was half sunny, half not.
My thorn is having a brain, and thats my question, is the allure of drugs and alcohol the dimming of the conciousness? to turn off our brains for a little while? to be totally oblivious? sometimes i get these weird nervous moments, for instance where ill be brushing my teeth and playing with my backfat and seeing if i can feel my kidneys when my heart does like a flip flop for absolutely no reason. if we could turn off our brains then i wouldn't have those flip flops, maybe thats why we like sleep so much.
But all in all things are getting A+'s
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[16 Sep 2006|04:01pm] |
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There is a large ball of frustration right beneath my sternum that just makes me want to punch babies.
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[24 Aug 2006|08:42pm] |
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1) i love joseph arthur, how is he so good?
2) I hate jetlag
3) i love travelling, i hate the travel.
It took me THREE days to get from singapore to syracuse.
Let me tell you a little story.
When i arrived in hong kong, i found out that my flight 5 hours from arrival was cancelled (to chicago). Hotel stay and all that. Then they moved me to the earlier flight. I got on the plane and the captain said that a passenger hadn't shown up for the flight but checked their bags in so we had to wait to take the bag off. So i fell asleep during the wait. When i woke up we hadn't left yet.
I fell asleep again. I woke up. We STILL hadn't left. but this time there were two fire engines pulling up next to the plane. They started pulling their hoses out (hee hee) and stood around and then got back in their truck and waited. So im like WHAT? WHAT IS THIS? freaking out thinking hmmmm this doesnt sound safe at all! The captain comes on over the PA and says there might be a little FUEL LEAK.mmm okay, then a THUNDERSTORM starts. Fuel leak + lightning is that bad? so we're stuck on the runway and all the personnel are inside safe from the storm, and we cant drive back due to the fuel, so we wait until the storm is over. to find out that the flight is cancelled. So we clear customs and head for the hotel, i'm waiting for my luggage for forty minutes before SUPRISE theyre not coming!
Suffice it to say i wore the same pair of underwear for three days.
Due to the london incident they check everyones bags before US and UK flights. So i go up to a guy in hong kong and he goes through my bag and he gives me the ok. Then he pulls out a tampon.... And says "wait, whats this?" "um.. a tampon......?" "oh i've never seen one of this" and i reply " are you kidding?" I think he thought i was flirting with him so he started squeezing the plastic wrapper and i said "this is the most ridiculous thing i've ever heard, you liar, can i have that back?"
So i be in the cuse now, its summer and gorgeous and interesting. Main squeeze is awesome and i absolutely love it. In other news we went to the lake ysterday!
We built an amazing sandcastle set of lands. Theres a minrarety thing a bridge, a coloseum, a greek thing, some african huts. And at the bottom theres a volcano!
At the same time how can i not miss these losers?
im still not sure what she was doing
aiyo. but i know that we'll see each other all the time so im okay.
peace out!
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[30 Jul 2006|12:36pm] |
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I am having a day.
this is why i wish i had a little man that i could put in my pocket, i would take him out and tell him all my secrets, all my indiscretions and the quiet things that no-one ever knows, the things that i think that are too horrible to say. The questions that i need answers to but can't ask because i would never want to instill sorrow on others.
And he would nod, and smile at me, he'd try to pat me on the back but he would be too small to reach, but the very effort of doing so would make me laugh and make me feel better. And then he'd suggest we go get ice cream and i'd say "hell yeah Sherman, do you want to ride in my ear this time? my ipod's out of battery"
You see where im going with this.
It's just that it's sad, everybody’s unhappiness is their own in its entirety. Nobody can truly help to shoulder the pain and confusion. As human beings we are too complicated and too flawed, and more than anything far too selfish to comprehend the extent of our actions and words. The very idea that more than one person can understand another’s grief and despair is absurd, we are born alone and we die alone.
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| give me your forever, not a day less will do |
[19 Jul 2006|02:20pm] |
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Do you think fish can see us when we look at them?
I'm pleased.
I started my new job at the Hyatt! it pays better, is closer to cayleys and has shorter hours. It's also just better. I'm in the finance dept, people hand me huge huge bundles of receipts and i have to reconcile number with payments and stuff. surprisingly the hardest part of the job so far has simply been putting the rubber bands back on the bundles of receipts, theyre huge. but i love it here, everyone is like a big family and theres a man that sings when he walks to the fax machine, yesterday we did the inventory of the store rooms to a frank sinatra cd. theres a lot of laughter. plus i get to hear people say things like "the hyatt doesn't use plastic" and thats always exciting.
I moved into cayleys! its nice having people exist where you live, plus mrs coulbourn makes amazing muffins.
My mom came through her heart surgery yesterday amazingly, if i can say amazingly. Her pacemaker was put in absolutely terribly the second time, this time she was only supposed to get the battery changed but her surgeon managed to fix all the things that were wrong; the pocket, the leads and placement. She went through the entire surgery with only a local anathestic - thats what they give people for minor dental surgeries! so she was awake the whole time she had her chest opened up. plus she checked out of the hospital the day of her surgery even though she had to sign release forms, basically my moms a badass.
im so happy for her. maybe now she can be.
sing with your head up, with your eyes closed.
Not because you love the song, because you love to sing.
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[04 Jul 2006|11:35am] |
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A sheep that didn't get trimmed (can i say trimmed?) for 6 years.
This made me laugh really hard. What a cutie. yet not.
awesome.
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[30 Jun 2006|05:37pm] |
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When i joined my company on june first, i got all the emails from a couple days before. May 31st was an email from a girl in Human Resouces - "Fruity Day".
i don't even know why i opened it it sounded so stupid. but i went for it, and in it she said "the fruit of the day of the month is oranges!" and then didnt say anything else about oranges and talked about like kiwis - in fact she even stated that all these fruits were a lot better than oranges. Then why pick oranges? Anyone who talked to me that day got to hear how stupid i thought it was, first of all what the hell was it and why? why is it the fruit of the day.........of the month? and why does she think she's special enough to pick a fruit of the day??
As i found out today, June 30th, she actually gives out the fruit on the last day of the month. today was bannanas and i was pretty happy about that. As a couple of my female coworkers made jokes about how the bannanas were long (oh penis jokes) i started to think, how come monkeys like bananas? Is it because genetically they're predisposed to find them -with all the climbing and tree swinging and what not? Then why do elephants like peanuts? do they even like peanuts? am i just being lied to by disney?
Anyway my ipod broke, i cried for about 5 days and then bought a new one. i dont like the new one, i'm now in deep debt and it plays videos. what am i supposed to be impressed? i'm really not the biggest fan of change.
Everytime i think about going back to college, to syracuse my soul deteriorates a little bit. and im not impressed.
I was however sort of impressed with Superman Returns, as a blockbuster not so much, but if you're looking to laugh at something it's awesome.
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| together we'll wreak havoc, you and me. |
[19 Jun 2006|11:52pm] |
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So i've been thinking a lot. a lot a lot.
i just want to turn my brain off because my negativity is getting to the point of exhuastion.
So im going to bitch and whine and think and scream
and feel completely free to ignore it, i would.
Otherwise
i succesfully made lasagna today and i am proud.
I saw benny benassi on saturday and i was excited.
i am in love with rufus wainwright and i still pretend he's singing to me.
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[07 Jun 2006|05:54pm] |
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Jane says:
i finished all my work way ahead of time, seriously im worth so much more than what im paid for
Dad says:
ask for a raise!
Dad says:
or better still, ask for something worthwhile to do!
Jane -says:
um thats definately not better.
Dad says:
real work that will make a difference to the company
Jane says:
screw that
Jane -says:
pride and satisfaction from "achievement" can't buy me pretty dresses and an ipod dad.
Dad says:
but you would feel better in them
Jane says:
no no dad, natural highs are for losers dad. and i don't get in my ipod. i get down.
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| oh how i love the chickpea |
[05 Jun 2006|05:27pm] |
my sister actually complained that i didnt update this. you have to understand its WAY too much effort for her to pick up the phone and dial a number although she does find time to ask me to go shopping for her,
im just kidding i love my sister
anyway
im at work and i have mastered the skill of looking busy while not doing anything, don't beleive me? i havent done any real work in over four hours now. now thats skill.
although i guess thats just taking other skills like how i used to not take care of the kids at camp and eat their hamburgers.
i digress
anyway the update on my life.
Living next door to alice is the BEST song to sing at karaoke
breaking and entering and public nudity can get you three police cars and a harsh warning. now and then, a baton warning!
lions DO eat giraffes guys so unfortunately cayley cant bring me back both.
i cannot chug faster than auggie and it can be extremely embarassing
the programming manager at my office told me there was a lot of violence in new york especially where there were "neegars" around.
sometimes i listen to rap and then i start dancing a little, but im on the subway to work and people stare.
they see me rollin, they hatin
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[26 May 2006|11:55pm] |
"If you could choose between a lifetime supply of cream cakes or a washboard tummy, what would it be? I’m assuming you picked the latter, because it seems that women the world over are obsessed by firm ‘abs’"
- some fitness article
umm....when i was reading this i thought "hell yeah ice cream cake!"
wow now i know why i'm so fat.
but in all fairness....ice cream cake is like the king of cakes.
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[19 May 2006|06:24am] |
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Yesterday:
Margarita thursday with alums, then we broke into shaw rooftop garden with beer and then went swimming in our underwear.
Today:
drank margaritas with sid by the pool, watched chris wong in a delightful white outfit lose a tennis game while drinking beer and then got a pedicure.
tonight for dinner delicious newton circus = happiness (im thinking satay and fried rice)
tonight for fun zouk a louk?
Tomorrow:
the beach and numerous bottles of liquor.
singapore is a beauty
but hot. i really forgot that i live in the tropics
all i need now is to ace my job interview on monday so i get moneys
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[15 May 2006|07:30am] |
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Fact: As Tall As Lions are awesome.
So summer begins
it just wouldnt be summer without a 20 hour travel!
whats weird is that all the japanese flight attendants kept on speaking to me in japanese and then once they realised i wasnt japanese theyd speak to me in english.
but you assume that the japanese can tell the chinese and japanese apart
so maybe my grams fooled around with a japanese guy who knows.
so on the plane i watched: memoirs of a geisha (so prettily filmed), the producers (really?), rumor has it (crreeepy), the constant gardener (intriguing), walk the line ( i wish i was june carter)
but alas i am in my beloved singapore, tomorrow is tiger tuesday so already its paying off
airports are weird you know? planes are supposed to symbolise adventure and escape. but in the end they really signify endings because you can't find something new without leaving something behind.
anyway
What i need: more money = work. i need a job.
what i long for: more cayleymarisaoliviax2jondavid and that singapore traitor lucian. oh and beer.
what i am thinking of for the summer: going curly, getting a tan, curing cancer if theres time leftover.
now you!
1) what i need:
2) What i long for:
3) what i am thinking of for the summer:
jetlag: cure yourself.
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[12 May 2006|06:05pm] |
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i soooo do not look like that
but they do have the whole anime asian thing going i guess...
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[05 May 2006|08:45pm] |
So i'm beginning to frame this theory
where all people are inherently selfish, individualistic, egotistical and goal orientated fuckers.
and i don't leave myself out of it
but its also a lot like the realistic conflict theory.
this has nothing to do with anybody and yeah people are really really nice most the time, but sometimes i jsut catch glimpses of people or myself, and god human beings can be so ugly.
it makes me sad and angry
i want my own island.
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